爱

have you ever loved someone that every time you see them just makes you feel like you can do anything?

have you ever loved someone knowing that it was a 'forbidden' love or knowing that maybe it just wasn't meant to be?


it's hard to live life when the person you love the most is off limits, and doesn't love you back. it hurts even more when you aren't even friends or even talk to each other. I've felt like giving up so many time yet there always something that doesn't let me, it just keeps pushing me to always believe that sometimes miracles DO happen tho you might think it may never happen to you, you never know, it might.
Ever felt a feeling of rage in you when the person you love shows signs of affection to someone else? it hurts.
Ever wonder what life would be like with them close to you forever? it's a story that now one could finish telling.
Ever loved someone for so long that you just want to give up because you just can't stand the pain every single day when you think about them?
Ever been in a situation when the person you love is crying and you would do anything in the world just to make them happy again, and you just wished you could say "it's alright I'm always here for you"?

thinking about these things makes me even more sad to live my life the way it is but you can't change anything that has already been done. it's hard to look on the good side of things when you've been knocked down so many times, but think about what your really giving up is it worth it? is it really worth making yourself feel worse when the only person your making feel bad is yourself? dont put yourself through that torture. trust me i know what it's like to live in the shadow when all you can do is watch from a distance, which i still am but when you admit to yourself that your actually not doing anything bad to the person you love just try to help yourself out and make things better by talking about it, cause it really helps get your frustration out. Don't always look down on yourself and say "all I'm doing is just making things worse" cause your not. You think that cause you just want the best for whom ever you love and you don't want anything bad to happen to them and you want to make them smile for as long as you live.

Love is a great thing. To me it means the world. some people now a days underestimate the meaning of love and how powerful the feeling, and the word is. but i believe that you can never really know the meaning of love until you have fallen in love. it's an UN-explainable feeling. When i think about the person i love i don't want to change a thing about them, cause that's who and what you fell in love with in the first place. Their smile, their hair, their personality, the way they speak, and especially the way they look at you with a smile just makes you feel like floating on air. i thought i could forget about the person i love because of certain personal things and for a moment i actually felt like i could forget. I've never felt so relaxed in the whole entire time i loved them but not too long after i felt the exact same feeling again when i first layed eyes on them. i thought i could move on but obviously deep down my feelings for them is much stronger than i thought and even in my mind i didn't know.